Wednesday, August 19, 2015

My answered promise!

So far I've been preaching about how great God is and how He can deliver you your promise to conceive. But, here I am 4 years later, you probably think I should give up by now and give this faith thing a rest! It's obviously not working! It's been too long, too many obstacles, too many tears, too many negative pregnancy tests. Perhaps this is the way you feel about your situation as well. Believe me! these thoughts have also crossed my mind.

But I beg you to never give up on your faith! This is a battle we are all fighting, and we will not be defeated, because we have God on our side.
How? well I don't know how, but I do have proof...I am living proof! Here I sit, diagnosis after  diagnosis, trial after trial! bad news after bad news...but  I can finally and happily say after so many years and menstrual cycles...that I am  pregnant! One round of IVF is all it took! Our baby girl is due October 19th, 2015! God answered my many prayers, and has brought me so much joy! With every little and big kick I feel, I'm reminded of the miracle he has worked in my life.

I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith. 4 Timothy 4:7

The feeling is unbelievable! Let me tell you that all the pain and suffering disappeared the moment we got the news that it had worked! So although you are struggling now and it hurts so bad, God will make it all go away in due time, and I promise you will not remember any of the hurt!

By all means I'm not an expert on faith or infertility. But what I realized is that God has His ways of blessing you. I can guarantee that it will not happen how you think, but it will happen. Because IVF was not the route I wanted, Not really sure why I was so against it. I think part was fear of the unknown, also fear that this last resort would not work. I also thought I would feel less of a person by admitting we needed that much help. But, from one day to the next, my heart changed. I began to get excited about IVF. The feeling was overwhelming, I could feel God guiding us to go this route. Giving me the confidence that I needed and the reassurance that it was going to work. I'm glad I listened! I look back now and I can see how much He has guided us along the way.

I couldn't help but wonder why didn't He guide me to IVF 4 years ago? Why the waste of time? Well, He gave me the needed to be this long for it to work. 4 years ago would of been the wrong doctor and wrong diagnosis. These years gave us the time to find exactly what was keeping us from getting pregnant. In other words He saved me from possible failed IVF treatments.
But most importantly, If I would of gotten my promise early on, I wouldn't have gotten to known His awesome power.. My faith grew over the years and so did my trust in Him. I can apply everything I learned with any other struggle that comes my way. A skill that I was lacking all my life, until now. 
He also changed our character during this time. We are more giving and compassionate. We see the importance in helping others, because He used others to make our dreams come true. He used the knowledge of the doctors and specialists, the help and support of friends and family and the love my husband and I have for each other. God uses times of trouble to develop your character and make you a better person. He knows it hurts and he knows it sucks! But like I said He will make your dreams come true in ways that you cannot imagine.

Waiting until now probably saved me many other heartaches that only He can see. It may seem that what you are going through is unbearable and extremely painful, but only He can see the worse pain and suffering that He is keeping you from, He can also see the immense joy in the horizon. Just trust Him, trust that these things need to happen in order to get you to your promise. He knows more than you and I on what needs to happen and how to get you there. Trust His guidance and His timing. Follow your heart, if something does not feel right deep inside, it's Him telling you it's the wrong way to go. 

Delight yourself in the Lord,
    and he will give you the desires of your heart. Psalm 37.4. 

Thank you for reading. God Bless and I pray for your miracle. Please comment below any thoughts you may have, I would love to hear from you and attempt to help you in any way I can.