Tuesday, September 19, 2017

Top Bible Verses for Anxiety

I’ve suffered in and off with anxiety, and when life gets too hard I have found that turning to scripture and prayer calms my nerves.

Here are my top 5 Encouraging Bible Verses to fill you with peace.

Psalm 139:14

“You are fearfully and wonderfully made”  (I read this on when I need a boost o confidence) 

Isaiah 26:3 
“You will keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on You, because he trusts in You.”

John 14:27 
“Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.”

John 16:33 
“These things I have spoken to you, that in Me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world.”

Philippians 4:6-7
 “Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds”

My newest project is turning scriptures into beautiful hand lettering art work. I placed them in frames around my home to remind me that God is always with me. I will have them available to download in my Etsy shop as I make them. So far I have one made here –> https://www.etsy.com/listing/557839355/fearfully-and-wonderfully-made-psalm

Thanks for stopping by!

Wednesday, August 19, 2015

My answered promise!

So far I've been preaching about how great God is and how He can deliver you your promise to conceive. But, here I am 4 years later, you probably think I should give up by now and give this faith thing a rest! It's obviously not working! It's been too long, too many obstacles, too many tears, too many negative pregnancy tests. Perhaps this is the way you feel about your situation as well. Believe me! these thoughts have also crossed my mind.

But I beg you to never give up on your faith! This is a battle we are all fighting, and we will not be defeated, because we have God on our side.
How? well I don't know how, but I do have proof...I am living proof! Here I sit, diagnosis after  diagnosis, trial after trial! bad news after bad news...but  I can finally and happily say after so many years and menstrual cycles...that I am  pregnant! One round of IVF is all it took! Our baby girl is due October 19th, 2015! God answered my many prayers, and has brought me so much joy! With every little and big kick I feel, I'm reminded of the miracle he has worked in my life.

I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith. 4 Timothy 4:7

The feeling is unbelievable! Let me tell you that all the pain and suffering disappeared the moment we got the news that it had worked! So although you are struggling now and it hurts so bad, God will make it all go away in due time, and I promise you will not remember any of the hurt!

By all means I'm not an expert on faith or infertility. But what I realized is that God has His ways of blessing you. I can guarantee that it will not happen how you think, but it will happen. Because IVF was not the route I wanted, Not really sure why I was so against it. I think part was fear of the unknown, also fear that this last resort would not work. I also thought I would feel less of a person by admitting we needed that much help. But, from one day to the next, my heart changed. I began to get excited about IVF. The feeling was overwhelming, I could feel God guiding us to go this route. Giving me the confidence that I needed and the reassurance that it was going to work. I'm glad I listened! I look back now and I can see how much He has guided us along the way.

I couldn't help but wonder why didn't He guide me to IVF 4 years ago? Why the waste of time? Well, He gave me the answer...it needed to be this long for it to work. 4 years ago would of been the wrong doctor and wrong diagnosis. These years gave us the time to find exactly what was keeping us from getting pregnant. In other words He saved me from possible failed IVF treatments.
But most importantly, If I would of gotten my promise early on, I wouldn't have gotten to known His awesome power.. My faith grew over the years and so did my trust in Him. I can apply everything I learned with any other struggle that comes my way. A skill that I was lacking all my life, until now. 
He also changed our character during this time. We are more giving and compassionate. We see the importance in helping others, because He used others to make our dreams come true. He used the knowledge of the doctors and specialists, the help and support of friends and family and the love my husband and I have for each other. God uses times of trouble to develop your character and make you a better person. He knows it hurts and he knows it sucks! But like I said He will make your dreams come true in ways that you cannot imagine.

Waiting until now probably saved me many other heartaches that only He can see. It may seem that what you are going through is unbearable and extremely painful, but only He can see the worse pain and suffering that He is keeping you from, He can also see the immense joy in the horizon. Just trust Him, trust that these things need to happen in order to get you to your promise. He knows more than you and I on what needs to happen and how to get you there. Trust His guidance and His timing. Follow your heart, if something does not feel right deep inside, it's Him telling you it's the wrong way to go. 

Delight yourself in the Lord,
    and he will give you the desires of your heart. Psalm 37.4. 

Thank you for reading. God Bless and I pray for your miracle. Please comment below any thoughts you may have, I would love to hear from you and attempt to help you in any way I can.

Saturday, December 13, 2014

Update! Ivf here we come!

Hi everyone,
Sorry I've been away for soooooo long! Not that I haven't had anything to write, but I've been very busy. I promised you another inspiring post. But for today... 
Here's a quick update...we have decided to go ahead and follow the doctor's recommendations to go through IVF. We are actually very excited about it, but concerned about the total cost. 
We tried entering a contest to win a free cycle last month but didn't win :(

So a great friend of mine started a fund to raise money for out treatment. We are so amazed at the amount of support we have received. We know that this is the power of God working through everyone. We are more than confident that this will bring home our little blessing.

The decision of making our struggles public was not easy but well worth it. If money is what is keeping you from having your baby I recommend this route. 
Here's the link to the funding account...you can see a video with a quick summary of what we are going through. God bless! Keep on believing!! 

Monday, July 28, 2014

Why Should You Pray?

On one of my last posts I had mentioned that God wants you to pray and ask daily. I also said that I was not sure why. But, I have recently come to the realization of why God wants you to pray. See it's not enough to ask once, you need to ask over and over again until you get your blessing. First, when you make it a daily commitment to ask God to bless you with a child, you are growing closer and closer to Him. Your relationship is getting stronger and this connection will bring you great peace.
Second, when you ask God daily for a baby, He's going to deliver your blessing in due time, but He is also going to do something better. He is going to guide you on the decisions and choices that you need to make. He is also going to place people in your path that are going to help you. So even though you are praying day in and day out and your promise has not come, He is answering you with small and big blessings, you just have to have faith and be on the look-out for these answers.
I'll give you an example of a recent turn of events that happened to a friend of mine. She is in the same situation as me and many of you. She was recently diagnosed with PCOS and has been trying to conceive for a while. I had not seen this friend for close to a year, when I received a text from her to get together for dinner. I had a sense that she wanted to talk to me about her trouble conceiving, and given that I had lots of experience in that area, I was ready to give her all my medical knowledge. At dinner she expressed her frustrations and something told me to tell her to pray! So, I reminded her about praying and how this was going to be the most effective tool at her disposal. She admitted to me that she had lost her faith. You see, she had made a commitment to go to church and pray daily for 1 month and she did without fail. When she did not get pregnant she became discouraged and lost her faith. I don't blame her, because I have been in the same situation before. I am full of hope at the beginning of my cycle and lose it when my period arrives. See, she was confident that by praying to God daily, He would answer her prayer, but He didn't. The next day after our dinner she called several reproductive endocrinologists to get an appointment but no one can see her for several months. Discouraged, she went to church to pray. The next day she got a call from one of the offices, they had a cancellation and could fit her in the following Wednesday. You may think this was a coincidence, but this was God answering her prayer. The morning of her appointment, I opened my "Jesus Calling" app (I highly recommend this app for daily inspirational messages) and here is what the message said..."I am working on your behalf...do not hurry this process...Abraham and Sarah had to wait many years for the fulfillment of My promise, a son". You may think it was a  coincidence, But what a big coincidence this must be! That this was the message on the day of her appointment with a reproductive endocrinologist! A message about a barren couple from the Bible that had trouble conceiving. On the same day that my friend had an appointment with a doctor that can hopefully help her conceive! Again I tell you, no! This was Him answering her prayers and letting her know that He's working behind the scenes for her and all of us. We just need to trust in His timing. Also that day, there was a beautiful rainbow behind my house, I only saw it because I had forgotten my lunch and had to turn back around. The rainbow is a sign of God's promise, just as Noah saw the rainbow after the great flood.
Unless you pray everyday, you will miss all of these wonderful messages that God is sending you. You may even see them as a coincidence, or worse, you are going to think that He is not answering you. You see, I had said that my friend had lost faith when she did not get pregnant after praying in church daily. But God did answer those prayers, He guided her into calling me for that dinner date. If she had not gone to dinner with me, she would not have started praying again, and she would not have gotten that appointment with the reproductive endocrinologist. He does answer you, just listen because the answer might not be what you expected.
I pray that God continues to guide my friend and all of us to the path that will end in the blessing of a child.

"If you believe you will receive everything you ask for in prayer" Matthew 
21:22 (NIV)

I found this prayer in my church's bulletin, I am now a big believer of praying to Mother Mary. As she knows and feels our deep desires. She is also the Mother of God and us and therefore wants us to be Mothers like her. Feel free to make this your daily prayer, asking her to intercede for you.

"Dearest Nursing Mother of Jesus and mine, listen to my humble prayer. Your motherly heart knows my every wish and my every need. To you only, His spotless Virgin Mother, has your Divine Son given to understand the sentiments which fill my soul. Yours was the sacred privilege of being the Mother of the Savior. Intercede with Him now, my loving Mother, that in accordance with His will, I may become the mother of other children; those that He would like to give to my husband (mention his name) and Me. This I ask, O sweet Lady of La Leche. O Heavenly Father, I beg you to grant us the gift of a child in the Name of your Divine son, my Lord and Redeemer and by the intercession of His holy and immaculate Mother, Amen."
Merry Christmas and a happy new baby in the New Year! 

Sunday, September 15, 2013

Yes, No, Not Yet

I've been told that God has 3 answers to all requests,  "Yes, no and not yet". If you prayed and were blessed with a child,  then it's safe to say that your answer was the first one. But if you are reading this, then you most likely haven't and then His answer is one of the other two. "Not yet" is not so bad, it just requires lots of patience and lots of faith. But "no" is the one we don't ever want to hear. No one wants to ask for something, especially a child, and hear "no" for an answer.  However, I have good news. Even if His answer is "no", God's plan for you is better  than anything you can come up with for yourself. So His answer is not "no", its really "no, because I have something better". Have faith that whichever answer you get it is the best plan He has for you. Jesus said "Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you: (Matthew 7:7 KJVA)". Boy have I asked! I've been asking everyday for the past 2 years. Recently, I began to wonder if this daily request would increase my chances of getting pregnant. Would I be able to persuade God's decision if I prayed and asked daily? Is it really necessary to ask everyday? Or is God up there thinking "Alright already...you sound like a broken record!" So, I decided I was no longer going to pray for a baby, I was instead going to pray for other things and other people. I'm ashamed to say that I got tired of praying and had temporarily lost my faith. Two days later after Sunday mass, we said hi to the priest and he asked my husband about our children. My husband quickly corrected him, like we do anytime anyone asks if we have kids, and told him that we have been trying. Having said that, the priest said a prayer for us to conceive. I was surprised by this because we haven't really had any other interaction with him and he doesn't know how long we had been trying for or even that it's a concern for us. So why would he immediately assume we needed a prayer? Well, I quickly realized that this was God's way of telling me to not stop praying, and that if I do, He will get other people to do it for me. So needless to say, I went back to asking Him for a baby daily. Before this happened, I wasn't confident that my prayers were being effective or heard, but He clearly showed me that they are.  I don't know why He needs us to keep asking but He showed me that He does. So continue to ask daily and do not doubt that you are being heard. 

Do you think God is listening to your prayers? Please share in the comments below, I would love to know that there are people trying to conceive reading my blog.

God bless!

Saturday, September 14, 2013

Is It Spiritual?


    Any time we have a struggle we always wonder, why us? The natural answer that everyone always gives is "that's life". Looking back to before we started to conceive, actually before we even considered having children, all problems and struggles back then seem simpler and nothing compares to what we are going through now. Never once did the thought of not being able to have children ever cross my mind. In fact, I thought the complete opposite. I'm 1 of 4 and my mother actually told me that she had a hard time avoiding getting pregnant. I think I have 15 first cousins, I lost count. Needless to say, I never met anyone having a hard time getting pregnant growing up. Yet somehow I am the blessed one. Blessed one? You must be thinking I lost my mind, infertility is not a blessing! Well, I beg to differ. You see, thanks to my "blessing" my life has completely changed. I am truly a happier person and have grown immensely spiritually. I see life with whole new perspective and I would not change it for the world. So back to my original thought...why me? Why you? Everyone around us is having babies left and right. Some of them are even getting pregnant on the first try...what's that about? Well I'm here to tell you today that it may be spiritual. After all, only God can create life. So could it be that he needs you to grow spiritually? In mass today, my priest said that God will put us through trials and tribulations to get us to listen. Is He trying to tell you something and are you listening? Before trying to start a family, I was lost in terms of religion and faith. I grew up Catholic but could not tell you the last time I had gone to mass. I had drifted so far from my faith that I believed everything that happened in my life was by luck, chance, karma or by my own doing. In other words I was lost. If it wasn't for the struggle that I have endured for the past 2 years, I would have never found faith. I now have an amazing opportunity to get to know God better, to be a better person, to have more compassion for others, to raise my children in His image and to know that no matter what life has in store for me, I will always have Him by my side helping me along the way. Why would He be so cruel as to use infertility? I know, I asked the same question, but perhaps it's because he knows this is the only way he will get your attention. I know I didn't think to look for Him with my other struggles in life. He knows that not getting pregnant was going to be my lowest point. I know you feel beaten, shattered and bruised, but God has enough power to turn your situation around if you will trust in Him. "Sometimes God lets your hit rock bottom so that your will discover that He is the rock at the bottom" (Dr. Tony Evans). Know that through all the clutter and noise of your circumstances, God is talking and He wants you to listen. He is not using this trial to punish you, he is just trying to shift you to the daily experience of His kingdom. Don't look at your infertility as a curse, see it as a blessing. God does not waste your pain. Embrace the fact that God has chosen you and is taking the time to mold you into something better. He is stripping away all the ugly in your heart and making room for Him. "The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit" (Psalm 34:18). So take my word for it. Put Him first, make Him your priority and get ready to receive His blessing. "I have been crucified with Christ, and it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me" (Galatians 2:20). You will not regret it.
Please share with anyone who is going through a struggle. I hope it can help brighten their day.
God Bless!

Wednesday, August 14, 2013

In His hands

 I have a controlling personality. I'm not afraid to admit it. So naturally when I didn't get pregnant as quickly as I wanted,I knew I had to take control of my situation. So I researched, read books, made doctors appointments, had labs done and learned everything I could about my body. I was very proactive! But all in all, I learned a whole lot of useless information. It didn't matter how much I knew, I still did not have control of the situation or the outcomes. Countless tries all turned out in the same result...negative pregnancy test. It felt like it was bad news piled on top of more bad news. With each doctor's visit, it felt like I was being pushed deeper into a hole that I could not get out of. As you can imagine, the level of frustration and anxiety of not knowing what will happen or even how to help it. My doctors couldn't even figure it out...so why would I? But then something wonderful happened, someone told me to pray for peace! What a concept? This is something I had never thought of  doing before. I knew how to pray for a baby and had done that on a daily basis, but it never occurred to me to pray for peace. As I sat in mass one Sunday morning I listened to the passage of John 14:27 where Jesus says to his disciples "Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid". I thought, well if it worked for them it might work for me. So I did. That day instead of praying for a positive pregnancy test, I prayed for peace. In a matter of days I went from a crazy obsessed worried bitter person, to being filled with complete bliss, confidence and peace. I realized that I was looking for the solution in the wrong places, I needed to let go and trust God. I was immediately lifted from the dark deep hole and felt light as air. I'm sure that this is what Prozac or any of those drugs must feel like, but better! I'm here to tell you today that no matter what you are going through, God can be the rope that pulls you out of your hole. Not only does He fill you with peace, He will also take care of the problem for you. You can rest assure that He has a solution and knows the way to your fertility. He knows it all and knows exactly when and how you will conceive. All you need to do is trust and all He wants you to do is trust. Here's another great passage "I am the way of life, he who comes to me will not hunger, and he who believes in me will never thirst" (John 6:35) What a wonderful relief, to know that I can leave it all in his hands. I no longer need to worry or obsess. He is the guide and the solution. As Dr. Tony Evans says "Peace doesn't mean you won't have problems, peace means your problems won't have you". So put it in His hands. Let Him deal with the situation and show you the solution. I pray that you too can be filled with his peace.

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God Bless!